It's August, I'm Going Shopping.

Perhaps because of all those Augusts shopping for school clothes and picking out binders and pencils, I feel like it's time to go shopping.

Nevermind that at this point I have no use for Elmer's glue, the 64-color pack of crayons, or safety scissors (at least in the school setting), I have an urge to go buy those things anyway. As for clothes, I have a nagging feeling that I will start my new (BSW!) program looking like a pauper if I don't get on it and find myself something to wear, a new pair of shoes, and replace my socks. I feel like it's time for a haircut, to buy a new backpack, to arrange all of my things just so in that new backpack in order to allow for ease of travel.

But I have a backpack, and school supplies these days will be more like pens and notebooks, and maybe some of those post-it page flags. I am expected to spend several hundred dollars on textbooks, half of which I will barely use.

I guess that the urge to shop represents the urge to reinvent myself, or maybe to make sure I'm giving the most accurate impression of myself. I want to be seen as quirky, hip, smart, artsy. Deserving of being in the setting; professional, yet fun and worth getting to know. So I find myself on the lookout for whatever I can use to show others who I am, and maybe that's the reason I'm wanting to spend so much time looking for those things that will let my personality shine through.

The first day of anything is always about impressions. Impressions of others sometimes turn out to be the polar opposite of the real person; however, I want to come across as interesting at the very least. It's about the presentation.

And not just this, either: I also do really need some clothes. A lot of my things are old and wearing out or don't fit right anymore. I need to purge and then replace some of those items with something more appropriate.

So this weekend, I will go on a hunt with hopes of securing a few little pieces of myself.

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